“Nothing happens, and nothing happens, and then everything happens.”
In 2008, a colleague at work gave me a card with that quote on it when I was leaving the company. It became somewhat prophetic of the way the subsequent chapters of my life would go.
It would seem like nothing was happening and nothing was happening, and then a sort of dam of change would break, and a month later I wouldn’t recognize my own life.
One year, I moved, got fired and broke up with a boyfriend in the span of a month. I then swiftly started a tote bag design business, with no background in design, apparel or starting your own business.
In the span of another year, a play I wrote went from being read by no one, to being produced, reviewed and optioned for an Off-Broadway production. (Not to say this was an effortless turn of events–it just happened at breakneck speeds.)
In 2015, the rate of change only accelerated.
I started this site, began my training to be a holistic health coach with the Institute of Integrative Nutrition, ended a significant relationship, moved, changed jobs, and probably most importantly, worked with ayahuasca for the first time, resulting in what I can only describe as a life-changing spiritual awakening.
Every change was a catalyst for new change.
Jobs and relationships ended to make way for new ones, even when I was convinced each time that I had missed the last train out of town. I was always proven wrong.
At those times of uncertainty, I had to come back to the same mantra:
You will know more than you know right now.
You’ll know more tomorrow, and even more in a week. A month from now you’ll look back and laugh at your concerns.
Because you figure it out. You land–gently or not, you land.
These high seasons of change have been transformative, and have helped me better appreciate when “nothing happens.” When nothing is happening—in fact, everything is happening. All of the changes you’ve experienced or are about to experience just require the right timing, conditions and ingredients to fully manifest.
It’s a lot like cooking.
It takes time to bring water to a full boil.
It doesn’t mean you’re not making anything; you are, in fact, in the midst of a great meal.
I think we’re all writing our own recipes, tweaking them as we go along, and even experimenting occasionally.
I think, like any meal, it’s important to find balance. To use ingredients that nourish us. To feel content with what we’ve made for ourselves.
I believe in Surrender, Vulnerability and Compassion as foundations. I try to incorporate them into every recipe. I think as starting points, they won’t lead you astray.
In the words of Elizabeth Taylor, “These have always brought me luck.”
One of the most significant things I learned from ayahuasca is that my true life’s purpose is to serve others, to hold a space of empathy, and support others in their own healing and growth. So Recipe for a Life is a primary ingredient to my own life’s recipe.
Thank you for going on this journey with me. It’s brave and it’s awesome.